Have you ever had one of those amazing God experiences? One of those times where all doubt about His existence simply fades away and made it clear that He IS there? Then you vow to be different, you vow to change for the better, you tell yourself that there is no way you will ever go back to living life the way you had before. Sometimes we call it a sort of “HIGH”, a mountaintop experience. The problem lies in how long (or short) that experience, that vow to change, lasts.
Too often we leave these experiences and it seems like there is an empty vortex of the life we had led before our experience trying to suck us back down to our former level of existence. Trying to suck us right back into everything we had vowed we would never do again. And when we slip a little, we lose sight of the mountaintop and we seem to continue to spiral back down to where we once were. Maybe it would help if we really acknowledged what it is that is trying to drag us down. I believe that it is Satan’s evil angels trying to draw us back away from our amazing God and as soon as they get us to slip up even a little, it is that much easier for them to drag us down the rest of the way.
We come home and begin complaining about going to church, how the music isn’t good enough, how the pastor’s homily was bad, how the people in the church bother us, and how the Mass just isn’t the same, and we begin to lose sight of that life-changing experience we just had. We begin to think that the God we experienced is only in that other place and that we are going to have to wait another year before we meet Him again, but that is where we are wrong. It isn’t our God who changes, it is us who change. Our God is never changing, He is always powerful, always amazing, always glorious and we could see that if we really wanted to. Our God in the Eucharist at Holy Mass is the same God made Man, the same Jesus Christ who healed the lepers, opened the eyes of the blind, that raised the dead. And sometimes we see that same Jesus Christ when we go to an amazing retreat.
Let’s work on keeping the vows that we make on retreats like these. Let’s work on keeping our focus on that Jesus Christ that we know is all powerful, all glorious, all amazing. Let’s work on changing our hearts, to love our Lord God with every fabric of our being and know that it is us who need to change and not our amazing God.
He longs for you! Long for Him!
Prayers for you and yours always.